Bruno can’t concentrate on his latest publishing. From last night a song is playing in his head continuously that is bothering him. When this happens the only cure is to listen to that song. He does not have that song with him anymore, neither can he listen to the song on the Internet since its rather less popular Italian song. Bruno flashes back last night’s conversation with Sohana. Sohana was very quiet last night but Bruno felt bit of a strangeness for other reason.

‘Hana, you seem down today.’

‘Not really, just tired may be’

‘Everything ok back there in Greenfield?’

‘yes as usual, things do not change much back there you know’

‘you like being there as often as you can’

‘yeap what can I say, home sweet home?’

‘Yes, I know what you mean.. then how about here, any home for you here?’ Bruno points to his chest, smiling.

‘It is my sweet spot too’ Sohana smiles back with a touch of shy as Bruno step toward Sohana. This little shyness is Bruno’s favorite. Its been almost two weeks they didn’t spend favorite time.

Sohana is wearing a long white skirt today, blue tops with gorgeous design on the color and sleeve. She matched her hair clip with the light blue and crystal ornaments, her ear ring also has a touch of light blue stone. She tied her hair with that strong clip, making her face looks even slimmer and with the high heel she looks like an angel walking. The moment Sohana stepped into Bruno’s apartment today, he was eager when to hold Sohana tightly, when to get into her, its been a while. Bruno thinks Skirt is sexiest cloths for women and Sohana’s body and shape is almost perfect for this setup.  …

Many things come to Bruno’s mind. Bruno knows Sohana still sees Meer when she visits Greenfield. She never calls or contact in any meaning when she is there. Bruno has to live with speculation those days when Sohana is not there. It is only that Sohana reponse differently on bed each time she is back from Greenfield. By now, Bruno figured it out. Today Sohana is specially effective, she almost travels to heaven with Bruno. But even at this age, Bruno still sometimes does not get what women wants. He decided not to speak about it again. But it is not an easy deal for him.

He has two minds. In one it says nothing is wrong. He sort of knows that this thing with Sohana probably is not going to be long term. So what’s the big deal, just enjoy the time with her. Another mind is that comes out from reptile brain. It sees him as an opponent of Meer- that he knows Sohana probably still kinda love with. This ‘kinda’ thing is funky for women, it is an excuse to keep multiple relationships. Bruno does not like this part, he is clear that Sohana is someone who does not want to walk extra miles for love or relationship. Her kind of woman always thinks love and relationship should just walk into her and she can dictate own terms and accords. And it gets worst, she is the one who will not take responsiblity for her own actions. Burno knows what she is doing, if someday this going to be discussed, Sohana certainly will say “He did it with me, he kissed me, he had me”. She will never say ‘I did it!” He knows Sohana quite well by now.

Every step she takes shapes up her future. This she truly believes. Having a relationship with Bruno-knowing there is no future, what is she shaping? Thought of Bruno made her warm but if this is only for companionship and physical pleasure, does she have the ability to move on soon in the future? The extent of talent Bruno possesses is not common, the passion fire he possesses seems unparalleled. With Meer, its different, he has been more like part of her life rather excitements. Its like married to someone for twenty years although she has been with Meer for 7 years. Sohana will need to shape up a very different mindset to get out of this Meer-Bruno circle in life.

The biggest difficulty Sohana has in relationship to let things go completely. She could not let Meer go completely. She will have hard time to part from Bruno as well. The ugly truth is Bruno became important only after she started to have sexual relationship with him. She often remembers their first day, how if felt different. How she felt free, completely reprimanded by physical act with Bruno, a mix of guilt and sheerness- hard to describe.

She was not like this before. She had a few relationship before Meer, they ended peacefully and normally. Yes, it hurt that time but was recoverable. Sohana ponders on the flashback that is when her phone rings-

‘Sohana, this is Shayan, got something urgent;

‘what it is, everything ok?’ Sohana is in clear worry

‘Meer collapsed at the soccer field an hour ago, in hospital now. doctors are checking him in the emergency room’

‘oh no, what do you mean by collapsed, is it soccer injury?’

‘no, its not a game injury, he was found unconscious at the bathroom of the soccer field’

Sohana’s heart beat started to raise quickly

‘ are you there?’

‘yes, i am, just shocked’

‘i think you should come, Sohana’

To be continued…